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and now 3-4 years later

May 8th, 2009 (04:01 am)

it is now ocho de mayo. been a long time since i posted. yea like ive been in a coma or something or other. a small update on the life i lead as of now. now currently well over 30 yrs of age, and somehow still leading the lonesome life. hanging out on numerous occasions at mcsorley's beach pub. ok lets be honest im pretty much there every nite of the week. so much so that i now currently work there at least twice a week, mainly on fridays and saturdays. sometimes on thursdays if its busy enough. offered/volunteered for the barback position there after the last barback left. heck, i hangout there so much during the week at least i get paid for at least two of those days. long are the days since i used to hangout at downtown fort lauderdale. ive left behind many drama filled nites from there. fun and stressfree(well for the most part) have replaced those downtown nites. but yet one has to wonder if the drama free lifestyle is consistent with the lonesome nites. but i digress. i still wouldnt trade the experiences ive had between the downtown times and how theyve lead to the mcsorley's era of my life. friends come and go, those who remain are those who i choose to cherish and keep in the long road that is my life. relationship-wise though pretty much nonexistent since the days i was with a certain life-love that to this day i long for, but times have changed since then. new crushes have come and gone, but at the same time certain ones ive chosen to pursue, either because of the idea of not wanting to cause dramatic events to unfold, or just to my state of shyness with which ive always had through the years. although in recent years i have worked hard to overcome alot of these shyness within myself, and working as a barback at mcsorley's has really done lots in that direction. still though, there are several aspects of my current life that disallows me to be close to any one person, which seemeingly drives away certain women who i could call "the one to be with". but for the most part, having the friends i have now, whether through personal sacrifice or just friends i've come to know along the way, have been wonders to my own well-being. and i wouldnt trade them all for all the riches in the world. so in some sense, though i find loneliness in my own personal well-being, i still do love the life which i lead. and in the end i know i eventually will find that, or who, which will enable me to find that certain happiness in my own person. the happiness that could only be attained in finding that certain someone to share life with. but for now friends will have to come first, and making those around me happy, is the greatest pleasure one can find in a lonesome state of mind. i still wouldnt change things if given the chance. this is my life.

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November 16th, 2006 (12:02 am)

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hell ya! GO GATORS!!!!

April 4th, 2006 (12:45 am)

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February 1st, 2006 (07:51 pm)
good

current mood: good

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March 19th, 2005 (11:08 pm)

blasphemous rumours
by depeche mode

Girl of sixteen, whole life ahead of her
Slashed her wrists, bored with life
Didn't succeed, thank the Lord
For small mercies

Fighting back the tears, mother reads the note again
Sixteen candles burn in her mind
She takes the blame, it's always the same
She goes down on her knees and prays

I don't want to start any blasphemous rumours
But I think that God's got a sick sense of humor
And when I die I expect to find Him laughing

Girl of eighteen, fell in love with everything
Found new life in Jesus Christ
Hit by a car, ended up
On a life support machine

Summer's day, as she passed away
Birds were singing in the summer sky
Then came the rain, and once again
A tear fell from her mother's eye

I don't want to start any blasphemous rumours
But I think that God's got a sick sense of humor
And when I die I expect to find Him laughing

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5 days til Christmas

December 20th, 2004 (01:24 pm)
calm

current mood: calm

FairyTale of New York by the Pogues


It was Christmas Eve babe
In the drunk tank
An old man said to me, won't see another one
And then he sang a song
The Rare Old Mountain Dew
I turned my face away
And dreamed about you

Got on a lucky one
Came in eighteen to one
I've got a feeling
This year's for me and you
So happy Christmas
I love you baby
I can see a better time
When all our dreams come true

They've got cars big as bars
They've got rivers of gold
But the wind goes right through you
It's no place for the old
When you first took my hand
On a cold Christmas Eve
You promised me
Broadway was waiting for me

You were handsome
You were pretty
Queen of New York City
When the band finished playing
They howled out for more
Sinatra was swinging,
All the drunks they were singing
We kissed on a corner
Then danced through the night

The boys of the NYPD choir
Were singing "Galway Bay"
And the bells were ringing out
For Christmas day

You're a bum
You're a punk
You're an old slut on junk
Lying there almost dead on a drip in that bed
You scumbag, you maggot
You cheap lousy faggot
Happy Christmas your arse
I pray God it's our last




The boys of the NYPD choir
Still singing "Galway Bay"
And the bells were ringing out
For Christmas day


I could have been someone
Well so could anyone
You took my dreams from me
When I first found you
I kept them with me babe
I put them with my own
Can't make it all alone
I've built my dreams around you

The boys of the NYPD choir
Still singing "Galway Bay"
And the bells are ringing out
For Christmas day

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6 days til Christmas

December 19th, 2004 (03:05 pm)

Christmas with The Devil by Spinal Tap

The elves are dressed in leather
And the angels are in chains
(Christmas with the Devil)
The sugar plums are rancid
And the stockings are in flames
(Christmas with the Devil)
There's a demon in my belly
And a gremlin in my brain
There's someone up the chimney hole
And Satan is his name

The rats ate all the presents
And the reindeer ran away
(Christmas with the Devil)
There'll be no Father Christmas
'Cause it's Evil's holiday
(Christmas with the Devil)

No bells in Hell
No snow below
Silent night, violent night

So come all ye unfaithful
Don't be left out in the cold
You don't need no invitation, no...
Your ticket is your soul

The elves are dressed in leather
And the angels are in chains
(Christmas with the Devil)
The sugar plums are rancid
And the stockings are in flames
(Christmas with the Devil)
(Christmas with the Devil)
(Christmas with the Devil)
(Christmas with the Devil)
(Christmas with the Devil)

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M-A-R-T-Y [userpic]

7 days til Christmas

December 18th, 2004 (11:38 pm)

It's Christmas All Over Again by Tom Petty

Well it's Christmas time again
Decorations pearl hung by the fire

Everybody's singing
All the bells are ringing out
And it's Christmas all over again, yeah again

Long distance relatives
Haven't seen them in a long, long time
Yeah, I kind of missed them
I just don't want to kiss them, no
And it's Christmas all over again, yeah again

And all over town
Little kids gonna get down
And Christmas is a rocking time
Put your body next to mine
Underneath the mistletoe we go, we go

Everybody's singing
All the bells are ringing out
And it's Christmas all over again, yeah again

And right down our block
Little kids start to rock
And Christmas is a rocking time
Put your body next to mine
Underneath the mistletoe we go, we go

Merry Christmas time, gonna find you
Happy and there by your fire
I hope you have a good one
I hope Mama gets her shopping done

And it's Christmas all over again
Oh baby, it's Christmas all over again, aw yeah
And it's Christmas all over again

Now let's see
I want a new Rickenbacker guitar
Two fender bassmans
A Chuck Berry song book
Xylophone

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8 days til Christmas

December 17th, 2004 (09:26 pm)
blah

current mood: blah

Christmas by the Phone by Good Charlotte


{VERSE}
Another year, another tree,
but this year you wont be with me,
and it don't feel much like christmas.
We used to watch the same old shows,
sing social-D on the radio,
but it don't feel much like christmas.

{BRIDGE}
This used to be my favourite holiday,
my christmas eve wuz filled with dreams,
but you chased them all away,

{CHORUS}
Why did you leave me for christmas,
you left me lonely itz true,
could you have waited till new years,
at least the year would be through,
and now the mistletoes hanging,
for no reason at all,
and all the presents are still wrapped,
but you dont even call.

{VERSE}
I took a walk to where we go,
there were lights and there wuz snow,
but it dont feel much like christmas,
and people ask me how you've been,
i fake a smile and say "ok",
but i don't feel much like christmas,

{BRIDGE}
you used to be my favourite holiday,
but now your gone, i'm all alone,
and all that i can say,

{VERSE}
Why did you leave me for christmas,
you left me lonely itz true,
could you have waited till new years,
at least the year would be through,
and now the mistletoes hanging,
for no reason at all,
and all the presents are still wrapped,
but you dont even call.

Waiting here alone,
christmas by the phone,
said i'm waiting here alone,
spending christmas by the phone.

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December 16th, 2004 (11:50 pm)

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